I’m hyped on clarity, caffeine and self-righteous anger. I could try to twist this into a fitness post, but it’s about another part of being healthy and ultimately where everything starts. Loving yourself. Respecting yourself. Knowing your worth.
I spend a lot of time learning about affirmations, self-care, manifesting what I want and overall positivity. In most aspects of my life I put them in play. But it’s those other times when I seem to doubt what I believe and don’t trust my instincts that leads to me getting hurt. I wish I knew why I talk myself out of the red flags. Why in the world do I rationalize something that is not in line with everything I’m working towards? Am I trying to prove my instincts wrong? WHY WOULD I DO THAT? Seems pretty self defeating.
This year I have loved myself enough to start a serious fitness initiative. I’m eating better, drinking water. I workout an average of 4 days a week. I started this blog to track my progress and share my wins and failures. I try to stay in tune with what my body needs and is telling me. I am grateful for my body’s ability to tackle new goals each week. I read and educate myself everyday. I set goals in my personal and professional life.
Do I know my worth. YES. Do I insist others value me? NO. One of the ways I fail at this is not trusting my instincts and acting on them even when it’s uncomfortable. There are times when I let a comment go to keep the peace, those offenses pile up. Worse is my ability to allow someone to treat me with disregard for their own selfish needs. Apparently I’ve been doing that for most of the year.
So this is how it plays out for me on a day like this. I get mad, I get busy, I get perspective, I cry, I get clarity and then the pep talk/lecture to myself happens. I remind myself that I asked the universe to show me the path I’m supposed to be on. The universe said not this one and made a hard left. I remind myself that I’m pretty damn strong, independent to a fault and a true badass. I tell myself to focus on the things I know are important…..family, friends, career, being healthy, working out and continuing to learn and grow. I will not let this break me and it will not set me back either. I will get up tomorrow and be the best Me I can be.
Daring To Do This 